My Inner Demons! 2.0

In shadows cast upon my weary face,

They think all is well, a smile in its place.

Silent I stand, no queries to arise,

Darkness engulfs, light I yearn to embrace.

Within me resides something strange and unknown,

With whom shall I spar? My enemy's not shown.

I've tried to make them grasp my plaintive plea,

Yet resolute, they wish to claim my throne.

The fault, I admit, was mine to embrace,

But forgiveness I beseech, mercy's sweet grace.

Suffocating in this realm I reside,

Understanding eludes, a wretched chase.

Once you professed a yearning for my joy,

What changed, pray tell, that now you seek to destroy?

Give me a moment, time to make amends,

I promise uniqueness none can employ.

Unbind me from these chains, release my plea,

Is trust in my soul so hard to decree?

Rest not a shred of faith within your heart?

Not even a sliver, doubting my decree?

Sleep has forsaken me, nights void of peace,

Tears trace my cheeks, this anguish won't cease.

Pretending to be content to the world,

A weariness born, false smiles to release.

Gathering courage, I laid my soul bare,

Hoping you'd understand, with me to share.

Yet you proved me wrong, society's pawn,

Priorities skewed, leaving me in despair.

"You were stuck in your place, I in mine,

I confided, hoping solace to find.

But you turned a blind eye to my plight,

My pain was mine alone, my heart malign."

With a glimmer of understanding so slight,

I hoped you would listen, embrace my insight.

Yet time and again, you shattered my hopes,

Unexpected actions, my spirit's respite.

I didn't ask for you to linger near,

Just a moment's respite, my plea was clear.

Why was it so arduous to allow?

I sought not for paradise, just a pause, my dear.

That day I shattered, broken without cause,

Punished unjustly, by unjust laws.

You may not perceive the tears I conceal,

But someday, remorse shall tighten its jaws.

The battlefield awaits, victory unknown,

Who shall triumph, who shall be overthrown?

For now, I wage a battle within myself,

Since when it began, I can't disown.

In the depths of my soul, this war unfolds,

A struggle unyielding, stories untold.

Mayhaps someday you'll fathom my plight,

The pain that consumes, as my tears enfold.

This verse, my lament, an ode to my strife,

An echo of battles waged in my life.

Shakespearean in nature, my words to convey,

The inner turmoil of a soul in strife.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy