Ending Misery




Tonight I'm breaking free from all the chains,
My heart's heavy with the weight of all my pains.
Each shattered dream cuts deep within,
And every mend just leads to bleeding again.

Tonight I swallowed all my sleeping pills,
But now I'm terrified of closing my eyes.
I'm fighting to stay awake, can't bear to lose,
The touch of your hand, the love we used to choose.

Forgive me, everyone, for all my sins,
Grant me freedom from this life I'm in.
I long to breathe again, to feel the sun,
To run in the light, where I used to belong.

That's why I'm ending it all tonight,
Saying goodbye under this darkened light.
Only my walls have seen the tears I've cried,
Only my pillow knows how hard I've tried.

Sorry, Mom, for failing as your son,
Couldn't bear the weight, couldn't be the one.
Sorry, God, for failing as your creation,
Couldn't find the strength, trapped in desperation.

Farewell to everyone, I won't disturb,
The balance of this world with my troubled words.
I'll take rebirth again, a free bird to soar,
No longer caged, but free forevermore.

©️ Niloy Shouvic Roy

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