One Sided Relationship

Don’t know why I didn’t forget you,

And till now I was unable to say it,

Okay I said,

But it was too late.



I was only yours,

But you became someone else’s.



And still I don’t want to lose you,

I don’t want you to forget me.



I know that you won’t pay efforts from your side,

And there would be nothing left if I stop paying from my side.



Sometimes to save a relation,

Only one has to give efforts,

Because it’s there or not,

Matters to the one only



If I also stop sending you “Hello – Hi”

Then how can I complain that you don’t reply.

Because all the messages are mine only,

The things I only get are just your replies.



This kind of relationship is not only ours,

I went deeper and found a lot of people like us there.



That’s why I send messages time to time,

If I like any post,

Just forward that to you.



By which at least I can be somewhere in your head.

I’m still there for you,

At least let me stay in your memories.



If I also come down to satisfy my ego,

The conversations will become empty.



How easily this old bonding will be broken.



Sometimes I think to wait for your first message,

Months and Months pass by waiting and waiting.

Now tell me how much should I love you more?



You will forget me,

If I stop myself

What will be the use of my efforts?

If I step behind before reaching to the destination

I don’t know what you think about my feelings

Before you thought it was sweet,

Now maybe you think that its creep.



I still be in my limit,

I just disturb you after 9-10 days.



I don’t talk shits,

I hope that you noticed.



I just ask how you are,

I hope I can ask that.



It’s really hard to save a one sided relationship,

To open up your heart in front of someone who doesn’t even care.



To whom I used to talk everyday without a second thought,

Now, I think for hours before I say hi.

Then again I send a huge message,

And hit the unsent button.

And end it by sending a smiley.



Sometimes I think to stop these,

What’s the use of saving this?

Then again I get a thought that

If it happened too,

You won’t even have any news that

I’m gone.



If I end the relationship from my side,

Then also you won’t even get to know about it.

Cause you will not know anything.



I want something like this that you understand,

Something has ended

Something you have lost

Which , shouldn’t be lost.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY(NSR)