My Inner Demons!

They think that everything is alright.. 

After all there's a smile on my face! 

I'm silent, but no one's asking the reason.. 

There's Darkness in my room, 

Somebody please bring the light! 

Inside me there's something.. 

Something's weird.. 

With whom shall I fight? 

Who is my enemy?

I've tried my best to make them understand.. 

But they are firm they want me dead! 

The mistake was mine.. 

 I agree! 

But please forgive me now.. 

I'm begging for mercy too! 

I'm unable to stand there.. 

 I feel suffocated! 

At the very least.. 

could you try to understand me? 

Cause I'm unable to do it! 

You told me that you wanna see me happy.. 

What happened now?

 Why are you killing me every single moment?

I just need some time! 

I'll do something that no one else did.. 

It's my promise! 

Now please release me.. 

Don't you trust me? 

Not even a little bit?

Nowadays I don't sleep .. 

Even my nights are sleepless! 

Earlier tears never rolled down my cheeks.. 

But this time I cried alone hiding my problems, 

I am tired pretending to be happy to the world! 

By gathering enough courage..

I spilled all my feelings to you! 

I thought at least you will understand

And will be by my side! 

I thought you cared for me the most.. 

But, on that day I understood, 

That society is your first priority! 

"You were stuck at your position.. 

I was in mine! 

I told you my situation.. 

 But you didn't care! 

 After all .. 

My pain was only mine! "

After understanding me a little.. 

I thought that at the very least. . 

 You will care to listen to my words.. 

But, every time you hurt my expectations.. 

By doing unexpected things! 

I didn't ask for you to stay .. 

I just wanted some time! 

What was so problematic there? 

I didn't ask for paradise! 

I was completely broken that day.. 

The day I was punished.. 

For no reason ! 

Well.. 

You will feel that pain someday.. 

The one that I am feeling today! 

You won't realise it, 

as my tears are hidden.. 

But..

Someday you will regret your mistakes! 

The battlefield is ready

Who will Win?

Who will Lose?

Right now I'm fighting myself.. 

Since when?

I don't know!

© Niloy Shouvic Roy

Edited By:- Diya Mukherjee